Happy Anniversary!!!

February, famous for Valentine's day and to be the shortest month of the year, yay, it means less days to work...

14th february is that weird day where every human soul in love feels the needing to be more mushy with their other half. Who doesn't know this? mmmm yep yep.
Well... for me and Zena, our special day is 13rd. Yeah.
February 2008, for us it means four months together, partnered and happy like ever.
Once somebody told me the average of a partnership in SL was three months. Oh. Really? Cause damn... every day I pass with Zena we find something new to do... and never enough time to do it.
Just a lot of new games and adventures to try, places to explore, things to do and objects to build.
Never.
Enough.
Time.
Damn.
And believe me, my friend, we pass in SL a lot of time!!! Some friends of mines sometimes tell me they don't know what to do there.... OMG!!! We have the opposite problem!!! We don't know what don't do! LOL.
Anyway... breath Muscle!!! Focus!!!
Oh well...
February. 13th.
What a great day. Oh. Wow.
We passed a great day together, can't explain you all we did cause it's only for us.
I can say she gifted me... the world. In only a night I had all I ever wished in all my life and that's it, my friend, now you now why I am so happy.
I did something nice too but hey... we males can't compete with a woman in love, imagine with a wonderful woman in love.
So hey ho, fireworks, happiness, hearts stopped, music, heaven. Everything.
I wish every people on this earth could have a day like this, at least once in life.
Simply amazing.
I logged soon, just all day dreaming to see her, with our anniversary in mind, thinking to gift something special to her.
Only... oh uff... always too busy to prepare something before the Special Day so... plan was this: log, hunt, buy, gift.
I did it cause she was finishing all things and wow what a luck, the night started great. Yay.
Arrived at home... wow. Fantastic things started, heaven till morning.
I found a big cake, eheh, yep, so damn mushy and old-fashioned but I felt a smile.
Then a nice set of jewels, diamonds everywhere cause as you know.. diamonds are forever.
All inserted in a nice and romantic giftbox. Yay.
Mushy devil, softer than the most soft honey bear.
Well there was smth more... mmmm I think you will never know what was. Sorry.
All this arrived after all what she prepared and wow, I was speachless. She reached the higher part of heaven and the deepest part of my heart.
I can only say... now our house has a new firework launcher with a great hud, located in the seaside. Watching fireworks at midnight, our house, the sea, romantic music, wow.
And SL will remember us forever too, another great thing she did. Yay.
That's all. Mistery. Yep. So great and amazing.
Then a long slow dance... where? Obviously our favourite place, the only full of magic and happiness.
The place where dreams come true, always.
Damn, I'm smiling again.
I can only say another thing before leaving you, my friend.
I said a simple word that night. A simple word that everyone uses every day, with a lot of different meanings, some fool, some serious.
It was an answer to the asking every people dream for all life and it sounds again in my mind. Mmmm I think what I felt changed myself cause I smile more than Joker since that moment...
That word found a new meaning that night.
So simple but so amazing, so powerful to change moods in a second.
My mind is full of great moment passed together, four months in SL are a lot of time.
But a day like this can make you fly so high to feel heaven is there, miles far from you, below your feet when you can't stop to fly higher and higher.
Oh damn, baby, you did it again. You used your magic and I feel myself lost, again.
Yes.
A simple but wonderful yes.
xxx

A friend came back

I logged a bit earlier than usual and I was alone, it means Zena wasn't online.
Well, when she's not online I am a bit disoriented, usually she's there more often than me but anyway, SL is so full of things to do... I can simply explore.
Thanx to SL cause sometimes you click on teleport and..... it crashes. That's all.
So... okay. Uff. I'm here... I clear the cache, I wait, then relog.
Bam.
I logged with a blue window telling Viv, an old (so damn old) friend of mine was online, a second after me.
Like SL wanted to say hey, Mus... take a look, your friend is online after a century!!!
Oh God.
My friend, a kind girl met at june, stopped to walk in SL at september.
We passed a lot of time together, talking while dancing. Great moments I can't forget. So you can imagine.
I removed a lot of names from the list of my friends especially who was online but never talked with. Not her, never. I was sure she will be here again. Only waited. A lot. Then now, she's online. Wow.
I sent an IM to her (IMed? mmm dunno): Viv?
I wasn't sure. Is she? Really? Damn fool of a man, who you want is. Bah. Yes was her.
I was so happy. Her back again. Wow. We talked. And danced. As old times.
Nope.
Not as old times cause since september SL is changed a lot. Our preferred place, SOTB is gone, disappeared. And the rest of the world is changing, if not changed yet.
I told her a lot of things happened here, first of all my partnering with Zena and her was happy.
I felt smth is changed in our ways to talk, I know. Now it's a bit different.
It's so weird. SL seems to be a game but it's not. It's really a second life. With every feeling you can live in your first life.
So I told her. Had to do it cause it's what I feel.
You are a special friend and you know. Friendship will be forever. I feel it and I believe in it.
Viv I want to be your friend, talking with you like we did in past. No more. But no less too.
When she left SL I knew it was only for a period and damn I suffered a lot, cause I was used to talk with her about things of every day.
I met Zena and Viv at same time, passed more time with Viv till she left, then I knew Zena more, and more, and more.
Till partnering with her. The best thing I did in SL.
This doesn't mean I have to leave a friend only cause I'm partnered.
I will be your friend Viv, no way.
Some of others didn't understood it, too possessive with me to put me in conditions to choose: or me or her. Well I choosed. Zena. Always. I haven't to think.
I know Viv will never put me in this condition. She's intelligent. I know. Damn how much she is.
Like diamonds... love is forever and friendship, the real one, is forever too.
I'm happy she's back again and I think she feels it, once Zena and Viv will met and I will be happy cause the two best person I know will meet.
Well... Viv, welcome back my friend.

Symbiosis

Technically symbiosis is a close relationship between organisms in which the outcome for each is highly dependent upon the other, see Wikipedia for more explanations ;-)
Well.... it says like put an organism and it will live if the other lives, it will die if the other dies.
What about people? Mmmmmm exactly the same, sometimes obviously, like in nature.
Take two people, deep love for them, a life together, lot of experiences lived together, funny things, bad things, stories and so on... one cannot live without the other.
I always thought it was only an animal world thing, so strange and curious to see it in people but well, sorry world, I did a mistake.
Not only I seen this thing near to me... some people I knew died some days after the other half died like they lost the meanings of life.
But... I'm living it, in first person.
It's incredible, unbelievable maybe, yes, I'm the first who can't believe it but hey, ladies and gentlemen, it works.
I'm not good-natured, dynamite is less explosive than me and I know my limits to understand others when I am angry.
I learned new things since I walk SL lands, first of all talk with friends about things, especially bad or wrong things, I wrote it yet, once I only had to close everything and fuck off world.
One over everybody, Zena, my lady, who always listens to my soul and tries to lift my mood, magically doing it, always.... don't ask me how she does it cause it's a mistery for myself too.
Well friends, when one of us is low, and I say really low, the other flies down in the darkness, to reach the other hand and take it out of darkness.
Seems easy to do but it isn't. Believe me.
Dunno if you watched a movie called "What dreams may come", 1998, starring Robin Williams, Cuba Gooding Jr, Annabella Sciorra and Max Von Sydow.
Well watch it and you will see what I mean.
Damn.
Really unbelievable.
You feel yourself flying high in the sky, mood is simply crazy, full of happiness.
Then you feel your other half. Strange. Different. Sad. And all crashes. In a second. Maybe less.
You fly down, deep in the deepest darkness. A mission.
You fly so fast to don't understand where you are doing, the important thing is to find your other half, let her/him breathe with you.
Can be easy sometimes, can be hard sometimes, but you have to do it, always.
Symbiosis.
Call it love if you want.
I call it magic sometimes, when she uses her power with me, finding my soul in the black water where it's sunk.
Once I told her thanx, once she told me too.
There's nothing to thank, really.
It has to be done. Always. And forever.
I don't fear of the dark. I seen too much bad things in the RL world to understand life is not so easy and especially not so good sometimes.
I fear only of a thing.
The silence. The silence that follows your asks, the worst silence. When you ask what's wrong, how you can help, what you can do to help. That silence. It's terrible.
You simply can't try to do your magic, you can't do anything, neither good nor bad. Just frozen.
I used my silences more than how much I wanted in past, now I understand and I ask sorry to everybody.
It's the worst thing you can do.
I prefer to know what I have to face, dive in the darkness and try to find your hand.
Or lose myself trying to do it. Not stay outside looking. And waiting. And doing nothing.
Cause my mood can't fly if she's sad. I can't be happy if she's not happy.
It's natural to protect yourself. To try to have your happiness always on 100%.
Symbiosis.
Lift her mood and yours will lift.
Always.
It's simply great.
Oh another thing, just for Zena... you see... I learn quickly. xxx

Only

I'd like to sit on top of a mountain, only to feel the sun warming my face, looking an eagle flying high in the sky. The silence will be so loud and massive to remove all my thoughts, leaving me in a perfect peace, dreaming, feeling myself alive like ever.
I'd like to talk with old people of every nation, only to listen their experience of life, how they afforded troubles of life, how they solved them. It wil be a great journey in their minds, thousands of great days proudly explained; I will listen them in silence, fantastic stories so great to be real and so real to be great.
I'd like to be fire, only to warm the body of the woman I love, rubbing her skin without burning it. I will move slowly, close to her, making shivers over her skin, warming her soul and her heart with my dangerous dance.
I'd like to have a lot of money, only to see faces smiling when I gift them to others, other people with dreams like mines. I will move from a place to another, searching sad faces, searching tears, removing them with a gentle action. We will sit and talk, for hours, old friends just met.
I'd like to talk with Gods, smiling and relaxing, like friends, only to ask where they found inspiration to create this weird but wonderful world. There will be every God of this world and beyond, even the smallest one and everyone will talk, will smile and will laugh, asking and explaining each other what was never asked before.
I'd like to build an ice castle, huge and full of towers, only to see it melting under the warmth of the sun. We will sit around it, having a big party with music and dances, with pillows everywhere to stay comfortable, eating cakes and drinking chocolate and coffee, looking water wetting the earth and the castle changing its shape, lighting the land around with its reflections.
I'd like to stop the time, only to stay with my lady more I can. I will show her every wonderful place on this earth to make her feel how much she is wonderful. We will dance slowly, looking in our eyes and I will follow her everywhere in our own heaven, every place will be amazing.
I'd like to buy the world, only to stop wars and hate, build a place where everything is free for everybody. Every day there will be a surprise, a party to show new things to the world and every person will try and play with them, sharing experiences and fun.
I'd like to know how to say what I have to say, only to be sure to never hurt people. I won't have fear to say always the right thing, even when there's nothing to say. My eyes will talk for me when it will be needed but moods will be always high.
I'd like to squeeze my woman floating in the air, like angels, only to feel her heart beating fast while her head will be close to my chest. I will feel her hair on my face, I will smell her perfume, whispering love words, focusing on her soul, listening her breath and all the rest will disappear in a bubble of soap.
I'd like to be a grain of sand, only to visit every place of this earth. I will leave my body free to surf waves in the ocean, dancing in the water, playing with fishes, or fly in the desert, caressing the mountains and the skin of the people around me.
Dreaming is a free thing and my mind always does it. I can't stop it.
Dreams make the life a bit better, especially when they become true and believe me, sometimes this happens.
Considering everything...
I have all I need.
Cause I met her.
I have the love of a wonderful woman and this is the best thing a man can ask.
I wish her.
This is the only thing I really wish.
Sometimes only means everything.
Damn, baby, I love you.
So much. xxx

Shopping!!!

Ohhhhh... what's better than spend some money to have fun!!!
Well, since I started to walk in SL I never thought to spend more than what I earn sooooo.... mmmm camping camping and camping....
For newbies camping is nothing more than that funny outdoor recreational activity usually done by campers... tent, roulotte and so on.
Well... not here. Lol.
Here to camp means stay in a place, doing something boring, most of time waiting, earning some money (a few) after a bit of time (a lot).
There are different types of camp: you can dance, sit on a chair, sunbathe, clean the floor or paint a wall.
Oh once I found a nice place where to camp you had to stay in a grave, under earth with legs out of it. Funny.
Anyway... focusing.
Well u camp, it means u choose your favourite thing to do and stay there with a lot of other campers, earning.
When u finish your time u receive money. Like a sort of job in effects, yep, but boring, and low-payed.
If you crash, and SL crashes continuously, u don't earn. If u jump away, u don't earn. Damn.
Usually 15 minutes there for 1L$.
I never liked this sort of thing cause you have to stay in position for long times only to earn some dozen of dirty dollars... I am a free spirit, I need to explore and change places!!!
So well.... I never bought a lot.
Oh SL offers you tons of free things, you can have everything for free... near to everything... well... something... mmmm every craps u see all around, lol.
So no change. Money. Money. And Money.
Pay with your Paypal or your CC and another world opens arms to you, shouting WELCOME, all capital letters.
When I met Zena I noticed she was different compared to others, not only cause she's special inside but cause... she was (and she is) sexy. More than others. Why?
Mmmm really are u asking?
Dam... SHOPPING!!!!! Hey... focus!!! Lol
Not only what she wears but hair, eyes, skin, shapes, HUDs, and so on.
And furnitures, gestures, everything this weird world can give you.
Ohhh I could talk for ages to explain you everything you can buy here my friend! Tons of things!
I will do it, later, sure.
But now....
Well I decided to do the step. Shopping.
I bought smth, lots of doubts. Mmmmm this will be nice? And that? Ohhh this could be great but.... ohh how much it costs....
Well u know... like rolling down a hill... when you have speed you roll like crazy.
I spent a fortune.
Shopping addict. Damn.
But funny thing is to go shopping with my other half, I love it cause we have a lot in common and everything become funny for us.
So... hair, first step. Then eyes. Then wears. Then all the rest. Lol. Terrible.
I will tell you everything about my first gifts to myself.
Now I found some interesting shops where I can buy my favourite things.
Since I started SL I had only a couple of jeans, some shoes and some shirts, no more.
You don't need to change wears here, you can't dirt or damage them!
Now.... mmm lot of different suites.
Some to dance in elegant places, some sexy suites to feel me interesting, lol, some easy-wearing for beach, gothic wears, armours and so on.
Yep. Great. Eyes have their part.

So visit a nice place, a nice shop that offers you tons of things and you choose what u want, look at the picture and spend your money, wearing your things like a superstar, everything is fitting perfectly. yay.
So... what I need now.... mmmm let's see....
ohhh a new tshirt. yep.
then a gift for my baby. smth special for a special lady.
and shoes. elegant. last pair was not so good. mmmm
Ohhh damn I have to run or I won't do everything in time....
See ya my friends... shopping's calling. xxx

The fire burns

Long time I wasn't listening heavy music and I'm doing it tonight, trying to write smth with a bit of sense, selecting it between the chaos flooding my head.
My heart can be compared to the weather of today, so gray and empty that everything seems to be lifeless and without interest.
I learned to talk, I do it now, explaining what I feel, what are my sensations, what I love and what I hate in this weird world and beyond.
Well, you will say, it sounds great. Nope I say, it's not so great.
Dreaming to have wonderful moments for all day, dreaming the time passes so fast till u can be at home, both rl and sl, and all this... only to have smth that kill your mood in a second, like a black hole eating everything around you.
Well in past I only had to log off, say fuck off world, then changed my mood in a second watching TV, playing with my PC or sinking my thoughts in smth liquid.
Not now, I'm not alone now. Have to share, have to ponder things.
I know it and I follow it, I explain, saying everything, what I love (every day, tons of things, my life is wonderful) and what I hate (sometimes, something, when bugs wake up and torment my dreams).
Well no one knows me better than my other half, she knows what I love and what I hate, you don't, so I will explain you what I hate.
Don't walk through my world with these things. Never. You warned.
I hate stupidity. Vulgarity. Lack of respect. Egoism.
For me it will be a great mistery why our Gods invented them.
Ladies, gentlemen, you will walk in SL lands for long time, I wish you all the best, but be ready.
You, especially ladies, will always find vulgar people who will treat you as meat, no more.
Oh okay, you don't care about this, only words on air.... yep but sometimes, somewhere, another person will take care about words, will take care about feelings.
Only... don't do smth that will push others to think bad about you. It's only up to you. You like it? Okay, do it. You don't like it? Skip it. It's up to you. Never play with fire if u don't want to burn your fingers. Or fingers of people who care about you.
So, for you that will receive "bad words"... don't care, it's only a game, yeah, ahah, it's funny. Sometimes. Maybe for you. But it's never forever. Once you will hate it too. Start since now, please.
For you that will say "bad words"... hey, you are talking to other people. Put your fucking words in a place you know. You like when people treat you like the shit you are? Nope? Well, you have to learn. Start since now. Without please. Do it.
Damn. I'm upset. Nope. I'm angry. Furious.
If I find you saying smth not good to another people, damn, I will take your heart and I will leave you watching me while I eat it. Smiling. It's not a threat. It's a promise.
Now I explained smth more, now I can try to change my mood in a way I know.
Fuck off world.

Nothing else matters

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trust in who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

(Metallica - Nothing else matters)

Just to stay with the person you love and all seems to be different, an explosion of color in a grayscaled world.
All is special, even the silence, cause you feel she's close, your thoughts are tuned.
Tiredness can't stop her to be there with you and it means a lot for you, just so lucky to have her to understand nothing is better than your baby.
This is what happens in my mind, any given day I meet her.
We are great together, I know.
Cause time runs away so fast I have to take a note to ask Santa a new machine to stop it, to stay with my baby more I can.
Just dancing at home, slowly, our favourite dance, looking in eyes and we start to relax, finally, after a long long day.
And everything turns to wonderful.
That's all, this is the magic of life together.
This is the magic you can find in a great lady.
This is what I found in a great woman like mine.
And nothing else matters.